Luckily i have a friend to take me to my first aa meeting, but i am still feeling really nervous the night before. I have to walk my sister to her bus stop, and will probably work out for the hour of free time i have between leaving her and hopping on the bus to meet my friend.

And by workout, i mean just ride the exercise bike, its the only piece of gym equipment i can tolerate and and gives my satisfying looking results (like a 15-20 mile bike ride) without having to be in the sun, away from my i pod, a sweat towel or some water.

I think most of my anxiety comes from knowing that while this is supposed to be a non judgemental place, i come representing the enemy. It would be like benedict arnold expecting coffee, light snacks and emotional support from washington and his bros the day after he turned over the plans to west point. Can/ will i be accepted? will I feel obliged to talk about my work?